Attachment is a theme that keeps coming up in my practice.
During practice, I’ll get this anxious feeling. I will start thinking about how I just want to let go. I know I am holding onto something, but it’s so unclear.
A thought came into my mind this morning that this daily human existence is pretty tough. I think even when it’s easy – it’s tough.
I am not really sure what makes it so tough, but I think it’s the attachment to the body, the ego, desires, and not realizing that we’re actually free.
I feel stuck. I know I’m getting to a better place, but how do I find happiness in difficult times?
I said to myself, “I don’t want to do this anymore.”
I wake up and do this everyday. I am grateful for everyday.
I know that I can do anything I want, but I don’t always know how to get there.
My intentions are set and I am putting all of my prana into living out my dharma the best way I know how at this moment.
The last thing I wanted to do after practice was sit at my computer and work on heavy excel spreadsheets, but this is my karma right now.
With everything going on it seems like I am constantly taking things in but not digesting or processing completely. I do have my 2 hour yoga practice to quiet the mind, which I am grateful for.
These are the times that practice works through me the most. I try to take every second in life as a moment to look deep within. I have learned to be grateful and not fight life. When it feels the most difficult, l have to remind myself that I’m not alone, and to follow the journey.
We have to always remember to work through every problem or difficulty with a beginners mind. One thing I’ve realized is once I make it through a big transformation – a new one is right around the corner. Things level out for a bit, but what goes up must come down. There’s always more to learn.
Change is inevitable, and if I am patient and continue to cultivate love and compassion, I can be happy in the most difficult of times.
I must keep reminding myself of this, and just do my best work while not being attached to a result or outcome. If I do that while I continue to follow my Dharma, then eventually the doors will open. Waiting is the hardest part.
How do you handle the waiting game? Do you have a story? Tell me below!
