Finding Happiness In Difficult Times

Attachment is a theme that keeps coming up in my practice.

During practice, I’ll get this anxious feeling. I will start thinking about how I just want to let go. I know I am holding onto something, but it’s so unclear.

A thought came into my mind this morning that this daily human existence is pretty tough. I think even when it’s easy – it’s tough. 

I am not really sure what makes it so tough, but I think it’s the attachment to the body, the ego, desires, and not realizing that we’re actually free. 

I feel stuck. I know I’m getting to a better place, but how do I find happiness in difficult times?

I said to myself, “I don’t want to do this anymore.”

I wake up and do this everyday. I am grateful for everyday.

I know that I can do anything I want, but I don’t always know how to get there.

My intentions are set and I am putting all of my prana into living out my dharma the best way I know how at this moment.

The last thing I wanted to do after practice was sit at my computer and work on heavy excel spreadsheets, but this is my karma right now.

With everything going on it seems  like I am constantly taking things in but not digesting or processing completely. I do have my 2 hour yoga practice to quiet the mind, which I am grateful for.

These are the times that practice works through me the most. I try to take every second in life as a moment to look deep within. I have learned to be grateful and not fight life. When it feels the most difficult, l have to remind myself that I’m not alone, and to follow the journey. 

We have to always remember to work through every problem or difficulty with a beginners mind. One thing I’ve realized is once I make it through a big transformation – a new one is right around the corner. Things level out for a bit, but what goes up must come down. There’s always more to learn. 

Change is inevitable, and if I am patient and continue to cultivate love and compassion, I can be happy in the most difficult of times.

I must keep reminding myself of this, and just do my best work while not being attached to a result or outcome. If I do that while I continue to follow my Dharma, then eventually the doors will open. Waiting is the hardest part.

How do you handle the waiting game? Tell me below!